Over my life I have had my fair share of physical maladies, broken bones, head injuries, mysterious illnesses, etc. But, really, they haven't been too bad, I'm still alive, there has been no lasting damage, that I know of anyway, and I'm still able to laugh.
This most recent malady, however, has been tricky to laugh about. Since Will was born I have been plagued with back problems, stomach problems, and unexplained pain in my abdomen. Well, I guess it has been explained, I have Endometriosis, along with a myriad of other problems that I won't go into now. Basically Endometriosis blocks your ovaries so it is difficult to get pregnant. If gone untreated, Endometriosis causes infertility. The cure for Endometriosis is pregnancy, amazingly enough. But that's not as easy as it seams. Stephen and I have been trying to get pregnant again for well over a year now. I have had two miscarriages and several other problems such as not ovulating at all for months on end. It goes without saying that I am a wreck.
I feel like a ticking time bomb, sooner rather than later, I won't be able to have anymore children. That thought scares me beyond belief. Don't get me wrong, I am beyond grateful that I have Will. It took a year of constant diligence and counted days to get pregnant with him. He is an amazing son, I love him so much but I really want him to have some siblings.
My doctor has decided that leaving it up to fate has gone on long enough so we are going to try some medicine to help me ovulate more regularly. I desperately hope it works.
It is so hard to heal wounds that are constantly been reopened. This year has been filled with more then my fair share of tears, many, many prayers and lots of help from our family and friends. Thank you everyone for your support, I can not begin to express how grateful I am to you!
So to perk you up from this sad and depressing post I will leave you with a picture of my handsome boy.